I'm preparing to start a new life, a new adventure so I thought it'd be appropriate to document my journey as I transition from high school, to college. A big change I'd like to think.
Today as I sit here, I realize my childhood is over. Gone are the days when I could just lay outside doing nothing and feel the sun beating down. As I prepare to start my new life, away from my family, my friends, and my hometown I realize just how much things are going to change. I think the saddest realization was the fact that going to college means downsizing. Downsizing is hard for me, I don't like getting rid of ANYTHING. It seems pointless to me to get rid of something that you may need someday in the future. Like what if I'll need those silver sequin high heels someday in the future? I just can't do this. I can't pack for college. Everything I throw away has a memory attached to it. For some odd reason I can remember exactly what I was doing the last time I wore each shirt, or pair of shoes.
I gave away my favorite pair of shoes today. they finally fell apart. A beautiful pair of red wedge heels that I had had since I turned 14. These shoes had great memory associated with them, I got my first kiss in them, something that is very special to any girl. I even wore them to one of my first concerts at a local bar, where i made my best guy friend incidentally. I walk into the bar and the first thing he says to me is "Hey, I like your hooker heels". Well, we've been best friends ever since.
Its memories like this that make things so important to me. I don't keep thing because I'm materialistic, I keep them because they're special. And i just happen to have a lot of special things.
In the end, i just want to keep everything, as a way to remember special times I may have forgotten.
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